Though there are probably those here who I saw a long time ago too…
I’m Otsuka Aina！！！
I want to write on this blog bit by bit
what kind of person I am…
but for now……
Actually…I appeared on an internet radio public recording
held at Ootsuka Shisui deux-san on 4/20
called『Girls Side (仮)』 ♪
Since I was a bit interested in it from a friend’s event
I had planned on helping out on that day、
but while preparing for the event
I thought,「I’d like to sing a song～」
and when I tried asking them about it with all my heart
since they said it was OK, I participated (o^^o)
Since it’d been a long time since I sang in front of people
though I was a bit nervous, it was so incredibly fun！！
Though I participated in the talk too…
I was still bad at it as always
and since I wasn’t able to say what I wanted to well
and I was messy responding to questions too
my bare idiocy made the broadcast a wreck…（ーー；）
There’s something I’ve decided
by participating in this event！！！！
Otsuka Aina… sings
I want to sing！
And so, I will sing！！
Though more specific things will be decided from now on,
the people related to this event I participated in
and my friend as well
said that if I’m serious about it, and if it’ll give me strength,
they’ll help me out with it
so while having discussions about various things
I want to keep moving forward one step at a time！
Those who appeared in the event,
those connected with it,
and everyone who attended,
thank you very much。
I’ll do my best from now on ☆彡
Since bit by bit from now on in the blog
I’ll talk about myself、
and about those who know about me、
please for the time being today, take this as the announcement of my decision。
I’m in your care！
Since I have permission from my guardians！！！！！！！！！！！！
Morning Musume。 ’14 “Toki wo Koe Sora wo Koe / Password is 0″ Interview
Ishida Ayumi took decisive action in Morning Musume’s first solo interview. With members exploding
with individuality along with Morning Musume’s reviving popularity, she’s gone on without her inner spirit being discovered. An originality which she’s finally found. She doesn’t give up in anything. Just like then, she’s stayed that competitive girl. Please be sure to read.
“When Tsunku♂san returns he’ll say, ‘You’ve all come a long way’”
–Currently your country-wide tour “Morning Musume ’14 Concert Tour Spring ~Evolution~” is in session,so in what way are you approaching it this time?
Ishida Ayumi: With this being “Evolution”, it has a meaning of progression, and so it was like
Tsunku♂san saying “You’ve all come a long way”.
–Like, not being content with the status quo, right.
Ishida: But now, since we couldn’t see Tsunku♂san at the venue due to his treatment, he’s making surethis concert is going well through video and hasn’t been able to see us first-hand. Because of that,in order for Tsunku♂san to say, “You’ve all come a long way. You’ve evolved,” when he returns……the 10 members are working hard.
–Morning Musume has been returning with vigorous intensity since last year, but what do you thinkand feel about it?
Ishida: We’ve suddenly started being told by people around us things like, “You’ve been making yoursecond break-out”, and although that makes me incredibly happy, there’s honestly part of me which also thinks, “Why is that?” We’ve become able to feel like new fans are increasing suddenly, as well as
female fans, and within ourselves we don’t precisely understand why that is. But recently we’ve been
doing songs with a cool style, and especially begun doing formation dances. I think those plans and
ideas of Tsunku♂san’s are popular in the current environment.
–But with the members thinking, “I wonder why we’ve been having a revival?” part of it is the
activities you’ve been doing, right?
Ishida: That’s true. I feel that way. But thinking like that is because there are ways where we’re not
quite there yet in our abilities. Since I joined saying, “Dance is my specialty”, although I have
confidence in my dancing, when I hear, “Well, how about singing?” it’s something I can’t say “I’m good
at”. And so, although the abilities of each of us aren’t good enough yet, and that makes us think, “Why is everyone following us so closely like this?” I feel like because they’re following us, we need to keep improving our abilities.
–Your skills haven’t been keeping up with society’s assessment. Therefore you also have some
Ishida: We have confusion and such too, but since acquiring 4 straight #1 rankings on Oricon is
because of all the fans’ support, I feel grateful to them all for that.
–What did you feel the moment you made the great achievement of a 4th consecutive Oricon #1?
Ishida: Speaking honestly, even being told that it’s the first time in the history of Morning Musume,
it doesn’t really sink in with just those words since as far as number of CDs sold, there were more at
the time of “LOVE Machine”. And so, though I’m happy to get 4 straight Oricon #1s in this age, it’s
like, we’re not there yet. Though it’s not all about numbers, I want to become able to confidently say
“We’re #1!” after improving our skills more.
–You’re so modest. Well, what does Ishida-san think herself about what kind of group Morning Musume
’14 is now?
Ishida: Now, Michishige Sayumi (Leader)-san has been active for over 10 years and is 24 years old. But
our youngest Kudou Haruka-chan is 14, and our newest member Oda Sakura-chan has been in the group for
a year and a half. If I think that way, though there’s such an incredibly huge gap from my senpai,
I’m also becoming a senpai. For us, our biggest idol rival is the old Morning Musume. I want the new
Morning Musume to surpass the Morning Musume from that time.
–It’s the overarching theme of Morning Musume since that time, isn’t it.
Ishida: Also, in the dressing room everyone’s like “waa~ kyaa~”, and although that’s incredibly fun……speaking honestly, there are times when it’s just noisy too. But when the live starts we put on our cool faces and do the cool performances, so I wonder if that gap isn’t Morning Musume ’14′s most attractive point. Though we’re close like a family, we sometimes are conscious of being rivals, and so with all our strength aim to do cool performances. Myself, I think that’s something attractive.
–Well, within that current Morning Musume ’14, what kind of position do you think the 10th generation
(Iikubo Haruna / Ishida Ayumi / Sato Masaki / Kudou Haruka) holds?
Ishida: Since the 10th gen who joined were the “Energetic group” in the audition, the 10th gen really
are the most energetic. Sato Masaki-chan especially starts just doing funny things without
thinking about what’s going on around her, and it gives me an awful lot of energy when I’m down
myself. They also talk to me without thinking about it even if there are shocks which make me a bit
sad. They also make me think too that, “Well, it’s really all right!” That kind of energy we don’t give just to the fans but to the group as well. Also, there’s 1 year between when us and the 9th gen
members (Fukumura Mizuki / Ikuta Erina / Sayashi Riho / Suzuki Kanon) joined, and we’re close in age.
So at first our inter-generational sense of rivalry was strong, and we did competitions and such.
–Previously, we heard lots of things from Tanaka Reina-san (lol).
Ishida: But recently Michishige Sayumi-san has been acting as the leader for us, and the 9th and 10th
gens are below her, but since we won’t be continuing to face that and will need to properly create a
senpai/kouhai wall, we’ll continue talking to break through that. What made us able to do that is 11th
gen Oda Sakura-chan joining, making us feel like, “We have to teach her!” We’ve made a good change in direction with the relationship of the 9th and 10th gens toward Oda-chan.
–Well, what kind of presence do you think Ishida Ayumi has in the current Morning Musume ’14?
Ishida: Mm~m……I’m not really one who understands myself well. But when I joined Morning Musume our
first single “Pyoko Pyoko Ultra” was an incredibly energetic and cutesy song, and since then such
cutesy singles have gone away, and we’ve changed over to a really cool and danceable direction.
–Since “Ren’ai Hunter”, right.
Ishida: I told Tsunku♂san, “I’m good at dancing. I won’t lose to anyone in dancing,” and actually,
in our recent singles I’ve been dancing in a pair with Sayashi Riho-san, so I wonder if they’ve
started giving us dance scenes like that since I joined.
–What do you think has changed about you from when you first joined until now?
Ishida: What’s changed the most is my character. At first I was competitive and always acted tough,
and I was told by those around me as well, “You really shine” (lol). But recently the walls I’d
created without knowing have been breaking down, and I think you’ve become able to see the natural
Ishida. To say it clearly, my “suberi (fail) character” has taken hold, though I don’t know why.
–Saying “My suberi character has taken hold, though I don’t know why” is exactly the pattern, right?
–Not having a state of self-awareness.
Ishida: That’s right, the character has come out without me even realizing it (lol). Moreover, the one
who noticed it was Leader Michishige-san. Though I don’t remember what the occasion was, she’d often
pick on me and of course followed me. Also, the one who gave the name “Ishida Time” to those
moments when I’d say something dull and everyone would just stare was Michishige-san. I’ve
changed thanks to Leader.
“I always think in my heart that ‘I don’t want to lose’. To any of the members.”
–You are grateful (lol). But Ishida-san, in the MC on opening day of this tour you talked about
something like, “Though there are lots of things i’m worried about, I feel better thanks to all of
you”. What kind of things are you most worried about now?
Ishida: Recently, like I said before too, since I don’t even understand myself well, I get to
thinking, “Is this good enough?”…… Doing work like this there are lots of times I do
questionnaires, with things like, “What is a recent hobby of yours?” Since I’m a person without
hobbies, I’m bad at things like that too. Since when I start writing about myself nothing
comes to mind like that… I get to thinking things like, “Why have all my fans come to like me?” But when I see everyone who supports me at concerts, I think that there doesn’t have to be a special reason. It’s not necessary to have a reason to like someone. So it’s like that, at the same time.
–So frankly, you’re worried about what your position is in a group like Morning Musume which has
gathered this much of a following, and have uneasy thoughts like, “Am I an important member in the
group?” Is that the case with Ishida-san?
Ishida: Since I’m able to do the dancing which I love at concerts, that’s not something I’m uneasy
about, but I get worried when appearing on variety or such. For example, Ikuta Erina-san and Suzuki
Kanon-san are easy to understand characters you can pick on……
–There are quite a few characters like that, huh. It’s like, that’s the “Current Musume.”
Ishida: That’s right (lol). But I think as an idol, it’s most important to be easy to pick on like that.Though I’m also known among the fans as the “suberi character”, if someone doesn’t know me and doesn’t know what kind of girl I am, they can’t pick on me and say things like that. Therefore as for what kind of position would be good for me, I’m still unsure about it.
–Listening to you talk today, the thing Ishida Ayumi is most concerned about is “individuality” huh.
Ishida: I am concerned with individuality. Speaking honestly, while it’s good that I joined the group
saying I’m good at dancing, Sayashi-san’s also good at dancing. Talking about a suberi character, since Ikuta-san is also one, it’s like they’re pretty much covered (lol).
–Like, you can’t pick out something that’s “just you”?
Ishida: I can’t.
–And there are things you’re unconfident about too?
Ishida: There are.
–In the current Morning Musume ’14 there’s an eruption of the respective individuality of the members, right? In the 10th gen also Maa-chan (Sato Masaki) and Kuduu (Kudou Haruka) jump right out to the front. But since Ishida-san has a bit of a big sister position, you have a calming effect of
watching over those around you, and you think that you really want to go to the front more. Is that the truth?
Ishida: Of course I want to go to the front, and of course I want to talk when I appear on variety
shows, but…… I get to thinking that it’s really hard. As for not being able to settle on a character for myself, since there are lots of different things I can say, I can do it. But if I go in lots of different directions, I wind up thinking, “What kind of person is this in the end?” Mm~m……it’s hard. But, what should I say. Mm~m………..
–You’re searching for that now, right.
Ishida: That’s right.
–When Ishida-san joined you were burning with the desire of, “I’ll defeat Sayashi Riho!” and “I won’t lose to anyone in dance”, right? But after a period of time you started thinking, “Sayashi-san’s presence is really huge. Though of course there are times I think ‘I don’t want to lose’, my dancing is no match for hers”, and so you started shifting to a focus more on overall performance. What do you think of that as a turning point for you?
Ishida: ………With Tanaka Reina-san graduating, and it got to be where we’d be performing as the 10
of us, though a center-like or ace-like person is vital for an idol group, I was like, “That’s not
me”. Though of course I aspire to be the center, it’s like……. what should I say. I think I won’t
be heading toward being Leader or anything either. I think I’ll be in the position of like a subleader
who supports the leader. Since more than paying attention to those around me, I think I’m good at
listening to what people have to say. And so, for example, though I wouldn’t be supporting someone
who’s like the ace, and I won’t be leading people along from the center, I’ll be supporting that
person who’s leading us along…… like, pulling along?
–I understand what you’re trying to say. Something supporting your existence. Formerly when Tanaka
Reina-san was there as a senpai, you got fired up like, “I won’t lose”. But when there’s someone for
you to get motivated like, “I’ll defeat ○○○○!” isn’t there, it’s like you’ve lost your compass. Is that close to how you feel?
Ishida: That’s right. When I’m watching our concert videos and such, when there are parts where I
think, not limited to Sayashi-san, “This really is so cool”, I start wanting to imitate it, and when
someone else is praised for dancing or something, I always think, “I want that too……”. Though I
haven’t expressed it, I always think in my heart that I also want to be praised.
–If you aim for the “Supporting… pulling along” existence you mentioned before, it’ll be like the
role Ishida Ayumi should achieve is to be the “Best #2 member”, but what I can sense from the
frustration you just talked about now is a desire to become more. Like the idea that you don’t want to
lose to anyone.
Ishida: I wonder, right? Since the fans are supporting me, and there are people who say to me, “Become
the center, okay,” and I also think, “It’d probably feel so great if I could dance in the center”,
when there are moments I stand in the center during all the movement we do during concerts, it makes me happy that fans go like, “Wow~!” But…… if I’m told something like “You’re the absolute ace”, I feel like it’d be a bit painful. That’s the kind of thing I feel.
–Individually speaking, I love seeing Ishida-san and Sayashi-san dancing together. The more I can
feel Ishida-san’s “I won’t lose!” spirit, the stronger the feeling becomes. Though I think that’s an
incredibly strong highlight for Ishida-san as well, what do you think?
Ishida: From the fans as well there are those who say, “I like it when the two of you are dancing,” or
occasionally “Ishida definitely danced better,” and that makes me incredibly happy. So when I’m able
to dance together with Sayashi-san, though I say, “Sayashi-san is really great at it”, in my heart I
think “I won’t lose either”, and so I always think that when you can’t see it at practices, I want to
be told, “You’re doing better than Sayashi-san”.
–Because of that, I have a request. I want Ishida-san to always keep on touting, “I’ll defeat
Sayashi Riho”. The Ishida Ayumi everyone loves…… or rather the most sparkling Ishida Ayumi, is not
the calm, mature Ishida Ayumi, but the always competitive, reckless Ishida Ayumi. Don’t you think that
Ishida: Hmm. I’ve also been told over time by the fans and the members around me that “You’ve lost
your sparkle”, but that’s something which just hasn’t been expressed, hasn’t come to the surface, and
I always think in my heart that “I don’t want to lose”, to any of the members…… I’m not good at
showing that side of myself.
–Like you haven’t been able to say something like that in front of the members?
Ishida: Yes. Since that’s true, though I’m a person who’s bad at sharing my worries, in my heart I’m
always thinking, “I don’t want to lose” and “I want to do something more”. So if all the fans start
thinking things like, “You’ve lost your sparkle” or “I wonder if she’s given up being the center”, I
don’t want you to worry about that. That’s not the case.
–I think that the key to Morning Musume’s continuing breakout is Ishida Ayumi’s awakening. The
manifestation of Ishida-san’s feeling of spirit that you don’t want to lose to anyone. Wouldn’t that
have a direct connection to Morning Musume’s leveling up?
Ishida: Ok. Um… thank you. I’ve been praised by people around me for my dancing, and have felt happy
from that, but at the same time I really hate it that I’m thought of as like, “the girl who can only
dance”. It’s like, even though Morning Musume has to deliver it through singing, what is it with me
only dancing? And so, recently I’ve been thinking that what I want to work especially hard on is my
singing. Also, something that none of the other current members can do but that I can, is rap.
“So that the Morning Musume 10 years from now will think of us as rivals”
–So you have something, don’t you? Something that’s just yours.
Ishida: In recent coupling songs and such I’ve often been allowed to be in charge of the rap, and
since I was incredibly happy that I was chosen since I have a sense of rhythm from my dance, with the
rap being put into Morning Musume CDs and along with that people telling me “You’re good at it”,
that’s something I don’t want to lose to anyone at and be the one to do it from now on.
–Thinking of rap in Morning Musume, OG Gaki-san (Niigaki Risa) comes to mind, so you can learn from
her rapping too, can’t you?
Ishida: I do learn from it! Movements during the rap and such. Though it’s best to move prettily when
singing normally, since for rap it’s more intense and more masculine movements are necessary, I’ve
been studying that part of it. Though I’m good at dancing to choreography, I’m incredibly bad at free dancing. I’m bad at thinking it up myself. At times like that I try imitating Niigaki-san and
such. Niigaki-san is so incredibly cool at it. That masculine feel. But where it’s clean it’s very
–What kind of advice do you get most from Tsunku♂san?
Ishida: He watched the video from our current tour, and when I sent him a mail like, “We’re finally at opening
day. Though I’m nervous, I’ll do my best,” there’s one of Niigaki-san’s rap parts which I’ve gotten,
and he replied with something about that like, “You’ve become able to do it pretty well”. Since it was
before going on stage, it really gave me confidence that he said something like that to me.
–I’ll definitely go to see that.
Ishida: I’ll be waiting (lol). Also, he usually gives me advice about singing more often than dancing.
Though I don’t know if my lack of confidence in singing gets conveyed.
–Since if Ishida-san gained more confidence in her singing, it would make Morning Musume songs even
more colorful, that’s probably when those expectations will materialize. Do you have a strong desire
to live up to Tsunku♂san’s expectations?
Ishida: I do! When I joined Morning Musume he told me that I stood out in singing and dancing above
the rest, but even though he said that, since I didn’t have confidence in my singing, I’ve felt guilty about it. He also said something to me like, “What about your entertainer nature?” but
since now I’ve become a “suberi character”, it’s like, “Is that direction okay?” (lol)
–It’ll be a splendid art if you settle into the suberi role (lol). But in Ishida-san’s case, isn’t it
best for you to refine your entertainer nature through your performance? Since there are quite a few
Ishida: That’s true. So I always think “I’ll work hard to not fail in my performance”.
–Do you feel like you could shine brighter than you have up until now?
Ishida: I wonder? But a certain staff-san told me something like, “You’ve changed somehow during this
tour, haven’t you?” Also, since my dance teacher said something more specific like, “What’s lacking in
Ishida is femininity”, I want to work hard at that in this tour.
–How do you work on your femininity in performance, I wonder?
Ishida: Probably expressions and movements and such. Since I’ve always learned nothing but dances with
hard movements like cheer dancing and hiphop, I’m proud of my sharpness, but not so great with supple
movements. Also, I tend to use expressions in patterns, or rather, it looks like I use this face here,
and that face for this other time, so since I’ve been told to draw that out and open up more, “Show us
a new Ishida”, I want to always be conscious of that.
–But Ishida’s expressions, compared to when you debuted……
Ishida: I’ve been told that too (lol). “You’d been dancing with an incredibly stiff smile in
the past. But recently you’ve been having fun, right?” When I say, “Yes,” they tell me, “It really
–That performance by Ishida-san is also in Morning Musume ’14′s new single we’ve been awaiting, “Toki
wo Koe, Sora wo Koe”. From the intro it jumps out as best of the year, and it gave me tremors inside. What kind of impression does Ishida-san have, listening to it?
Ishida: I think it’s a really incredible song. Before we did the recording, Tsunku♂san’s voice was
there temporarily, and Tsunku♂san’s singing was the best. Honestly, to the extent I want to hear
the version Tsunku♂san sings more than ours (lol) it was that incredibly beautiful. Listening to that
I really felt like crying. And so, we practiced a lot so that we might be able to approach
Tsunku♂san’s power of expression. Since it’s again a medium tempo song which we haven’t had in
recent Morning Musume, I think the fans will feel it’s refreshing as well, and that it’s a song where
you’ll be able to get to know a new side of Morning Musume from the singing and dancing.
–What part of it made Ishida-san feel like crying?
Ishida: Though it was Tsunku♂san’s singing voice, it was like a perfect whisper, which was so
beautiful it made me think that I want to listen to it always. Also, the part in the lyrics of,
“Kuyashikute Naitatte ii kara” (it’s okay to cry when you’re frustrated) I really love. For some reason I feel like it fits me well, and I’ve often been told by my mother, “It’s okay to cry if you want to”. But I haven’t obediently gotten used to it, and was like, “It’s all right”. But now, doing activities like these……what should I say. Words like these really resonate for me.
–Are there lots of activities you do within Morning Musume which are actually frustrating and make you cry?
Ishida: Mm~m……not physically speaking, but when I get busy with activities there are times when it’s tired me out mentally and emotionally. At times like that, though I don’t know why, tears start to come.
–Also from this single, “Password is 0″ is like an evolution from “What is LOVE?”, and is a number which gives an intense impact. Do you think there aren’t any other idols now who put out such cool dance music?
Ishida: I don’t think there are any other idols. “Password is 0″ is also an incredibly brisk song, and while jumping to make the “0″s, we sing with our mics too. At lives. While watching the video of us dancing this song, we’ve even said to ourselves “that’s so awesome” (lol). And so although it’s really a physical battle at concerts, we want to make clean “0″s since in the formation dance this time, if you look from above, we’ve become able to make it look like a “☆”. Since if we’re out of alignment even a little on that, if our arm reaches are at just a slightly wrong angle, you wouldn’t be able to see it, the formation dance level has evolved even more, and I think it’s something awesome.
–If you could get 5 straight #1s with this, that’d be really cool huh.
Ishida: It would be. Since we of course want to aim for it, I want to somehow be able to do it with the 10 of us now. I’ll be happy if we can improve on our Morning Musume record of 4 straight #1s. I also want to make it so that the Morning Musume 10 years from now will think of us as rivals, that “We want to surpass that time”.
–And that Kouhaku appearance you’ve been waiting for. Would it be perfect if that was decided?
Ishida: We unfortunately couldn’t appear last year, and that was an incredibly frustrating time, but thinking about it now, it makes me have an even stronger desire to improve, and I want to look ahead. Since though during 2013 we got 3 straight #1s, there are still places where our abilities aren’t there yet. Though the fans are telling us, “Morning Musume is so cool”, looking at the bigger picture, I wonder how we’re thought of out of all the other idol groups? Since we don’t have complete confidence in regard to that, it’s certainly like we just weren’t there yet.
–That’s a calm analysis.
Ishida: But, though I don’t know when it’ll be, it’s a place I want to keep aiming toward without giving up.
It’s Ishida Ayumi (・∀・)
We’ve finally entered April、
and so I think there are those here who are starting new lives
Ishida noticed as well
that I’ve become a ３rd year high school student。
Isn’t that crazy！
Isn’t that too quick！
Yep, but for sure、
our youngest Maa-Duu combo also
are already in their ３rd year of middle school。
Life goes by so quickly, huh
We’ve gotta make it precious
Well、that start of April、
is April Fools (*´艸｀*)
Did you all fool someoneー！？
Since I’m a serious person I haven’t lol
I don’t have friends who fooled me either…………
Ufufufu (^^) Things like that happen too, huh (^^)
Ahh, since it’s such an opportunity、
I want to make a lie to everyone
Though it’s funny to say “I’m going to lie” (lol)
Ah、an infinite loop has just been born in my head！
Though I wrote “I’ll lie”、
I’ve made a blog without lying about anything、
so as a result saying “I’m going to lie” was a lie。
But since if I do that I’m lying、
saying I didn’t lie will make the lie go away、
and so once again writing “I’ll lie”
was a lie after all、
……this infinite loop (lol)
I didn’t really explain it well huh
Since it’s troublesome I’ll stop with the lying too (lol)
Today I had a recording with Oda Sakura-chan for All Night Nippon mobile
With it being April！
All Night Nippon mobile
has undergone a renewal beginning with this show as well
…Ishida did her best.
Though it was my first time doing a radio show with Oda-chan as the ２of us as well、
we talked about things we haven’t talked about much
and about advising as we head toward our auditions
so it was fun ＼(^^)／
It’ll stream starting on ４/９!
Please be sure to listen okay!
Also、though we talked about it on the radio too、
an app I’ve been into the coーnstantly now
I’ve cleared the whole thing。
Isn’t that awesomeee！
Though I even think myself that I’ve played it too much、
isn’t that awesomeee！
Though I say that、since recently
the stages have increased yet again、
while looking forward to being able to do the next stages、
I’ll report about it on my blog as well okay
Tomorrow is the day of our simultaneous handshake events!
4/2 (Wednesday) 17:00～
Aeon Mall Asahi River East 1F Green Court
I’ll be waiting there
Everyone in Hokkaido
and everyone who’ll be coming to Hokkaido
and everyone who supports me
I’ll be in your care tomorrow Details are here！
See you ayumin