Today we went and did the S/mile Charge at a place called “Kashiwa”☆
But because today I was still under doctor’s orders not to use my voice which is in bad condition, I wasn’t even able to voice a single word.
“I want to write my thoughts of today’s Kashiwa”, I think☆
To everyone who came today.
Today the stage was high behind people and steadily their faces, one by one, I was able to carefully see them.
Because there aren’t very many lives or events in Chiba prefecture, I was truly glad that I was able to meet with everyone in Chiba prefecture.
I wonder, “This is the first time I’ve seen S/mileage”, weren’t there a lot of people like that?
Nevertheless, without being able to talk or sing today, I’m filled with the feeling of this being truly, truly inexcusable.
Even so, people were waving green glow-sticks for me, seeing them wearing green T-shirts for me, how should I put this, I got a sad feeling, or rather…passed the point of it being a feeling of “this is inexcusable”…
But, I won’t lose this feeling, everyone’s warm cheering, “It’s influencing me to try my best”, I’ve been amazingly thinking, not singing my parts I danced the dances a lot.
The parts where I can’t hear my own singing voice, since I could always hear everyone’s cheering, see everyone’s lovely smiling faces…
I was able to be thankful to everyone once again.
To all the members, I’ve truly caused trouble…
The assignment of the parts of the songs I couldn’t sing and such, it was announced to everyone who memorized them about 15 minutes before beginning.
Therefore I’m truly filled with feelings of “this is inexcusable”, and feelings of thanks to all the members.
And, I respect them.
Today’s live, sad feelings, frustrating feelings, feelings of gratitude, the live gave me various feelings.
Thank you so very much for warm voices at the handshake event☆
They very much resounded in my chest.
I’ll try my best in order to be singing soon, okay.
Everyone in Kashiwa.
I’m truly sorry.
And so thank you so very much☆